Amongst piles of pages lined with words upon words of “knowledge” and “wisdom” disguised in the form of information sits on the table, plates, cups and cutlery sit unattended to. Some clean, some with remnants of what I ate last. Books and trash occupy the space in front while hints of Arabica coffee flavour fill the gaps of sensory input. Of course, beats of M.I.A, the rapper and an occasional Florence and the Machine or Little Dragon number give the sense of a “fringe-hipster” vibe that I never signed up for (somebody once commented I was a wannabe-hipster and that that was cool!). Of course, blogging is supposed to be a “hipster-thing”, isn’t it? So what does that matter? People’s tastes differ, mine just happens to be a mix of everything – a “traditionalist” with a very contemporary taste – classical and experimental at the same time.
Searching for what you want to do and achieve in life is challenging though, despite what anyone may say. If you are anything like me, you probably have far-reaching goals that you have no idea how to achieve! Maybe a surgeon or an ascetic in Asia exploring traditional music on the verge of disappearing, or a veterinary bioscientist, or maybe lead the simple life close to a relaxing Fijian beach, watching the tides of time wash away memories, and the shoreline at the same time! We live in exciting yet troubled times, without a doubt! The convenience of the good life that technological advancements, free trade and globalisation promised humanity in the last century has ended up being a mixed blessing. While we, as a species, continue to break boundaries in the name of scientific progress and exploration, we have simultaneously managed to distance ourselves from that which matters most to the extent that most of us do not even know what it is that is most important to us.
In the pursuit of giving meaning to life, we now need to hold up picket fences, scaring away others who might hold an “inferior” ideology. We do this even for things we do not fully believe in or fully understand, we do this because that is the train of thought we have been born into – our early associations basically building the lens through which we see and perceive the world. The problem arises however, when we start seeing society through the narrow field of view of this misconstrued lens. In histology (the study of microscopic anatomy), my lecturer emphasised the importance of viewing the tissue against light with the naked eye first, and viewing it at higher magnifications subsequently. Pathologists and detectives use this same concept at the scene of a crime, after arriving at the site, you are supposed to stand at the periphery and look at the whole scene in its entirety. Only then do you zoom in to formulate the plan of action.
I ramble s0, however, the point I am trying to make is that even with our life, we sometimes get too wound up doing something which does not mean a thing to us, while forgoing what we would really like to do. This mostly happens because we do not really know what we want to do in the first place! Passion is an overrated concept in my opinion. Our spirit is indomitable – sometimes latent, but it’s default mode should be bubbling, close to the point of boiling over. This is the activation energy we require! How do we find it? I don’t know – which leads me to the reason of this blog series, where I explore the nature of our innermost desires, and how do we get around to achieving them. In the meantime, you know how I wrote of histology – yes, I have to get back to that!